10 day meme -- day 2

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day Four:Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day Ten: One confession.

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Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

- I've been hurt so many times, in many ways. I'm scared to get hurt again. It's so bad that even the smallest "mistake" can get me scared. And most of the time I just feel like an idiot, a failure.

- I treat my cats like they are my babies (well, 1 more than the other). Yes, I'm a crazy cat lady 83

- I'm quite proud and have a big ego when it comes to myself and my art, and don't easily get bothered by people who try their hardest to piss me off or upset me. In a way it's sort of a cover-up because I find it hard to trust people. There's only 2 or 3 people that truly know me.

- For the first time in a very VERY long time, I am not afraid to be myself. I've been told to change my personality by an ex, I've been told to change my life and live it the way (they think) is proper, I've been rejected for who I am.. it changed me, and made me think very badly of myself. But thanks to this one person, who seems to like me for who I am, I'm... accepting myself. finally.

- I love drawing and being recognized for it. I need to draw at least once a day and I really don't know how else to spend my time. It's an serious addiction.

- Health-wise, I have quite a few problems that affect my every day (mainly physical pain). This doesn't stop me from doing what I love and/or changes my mood (well, most of the time). It's weird that I can't remember having a day where I haven't been in any kind of discomfort or pain..

- I easily get bothered or annoyed by people, and it shows in my way of talking/responding --I believe this is the reason people have a hard time getting to know me or even get closer with me. I really don't mean to, and most of the time I don't even notice my own behavior until afterwards.

- I love life and of ALL the things that have happened, I wouldn't want to change one thing. I love where I am now and where I'm heading, and I love the person who I've become. And I haven't been this happy in a long, long time.

- I tend to care too much and/or be too easy on people. In the past people have been taking advantage of this and hurt me badly, however, I find it hard to change this about myself..